1st post after sch reopened. youth day celebration today! haha it was nice watching e take 5 items. guess all e contestants really put in alot of effort into making their performances a success. yep! its really nice=) moon walk is just facinating! lol 'robotic' actions too. super gd muscle coordination. really impressed by it all. haha and we were treated to ice cream! haha thanks mr sng mr low and mr fong! hahaha

went to wudao after that. i really miss it. guess im really indecisive changing my decision time and time again. there are just too many factors affecting this decision. tho i guess deep in my heart i really wanna stay=) and i wun disappoint you i hope

ballet was good. really worked alot. she pushed us so hard and its my first lesson after stopping for like 2 wks!??! haha but feels nice to work ba

1st dilema settled. now for another. how am i going to approach her with e subject? she would probably ignore me for e rest of e time if i were to tell her now. and i dun want tt to happen. my mum wants me to get things settled asap, but. gahh i just dun know how to. come to think of it. i cant imagine life without dance sigh

im depressed. im deprived of ballet again

and i made my decision
i guess i just have no fate with dance

shocked over what i heard
we really love u alot
thanks for all that you have done for us
take care

e&i is driving me up e wall
LA is getting no whr
and schs going to reopen tmr


sad

heyyy! haha just took a bath and guess wad? i gt a new soap! and its pink! nono its a shade lighter than red! haha aftr e agreement with zy to change my fav colour cux pink gives us e shivers.. haha yep i like e colour a shade lighter than red!=)

going out. yay havent been out for like ages?! ever since i was sick i have been staying at home day and night- lol thats why i started getting obsessed with channel 8 drama serials and kids central shows. nth better to do wad. haha im high

hopefully mummy would allow me to go for reh on sunday as i have already missed tons of clses. but i guess not 'cause she kept saying that need to wait a week or 2 before going for vigorous exercise because exercising aftr recovering from flu would hurt your heart. guess its true and im nt going into scientific evidence of why and how flu would affect ones heart etc.

just left with the projs and tt take home test. its driving me up the wall. its gd that the sch allowed us to watch the film and i seriously dont mind going through the themes of the film during lectures and tutorials but a test? although its better than having a written test in sch, it is still difficult and ppl like me with super horrible command in english just cant write la.

gosh i just realised that its 2 days to sch reopen! wooohoo! im nt sure whether im being sarcarstic or wad. all i know that life without sch sure is boring. just not looking forward to the stress and exams and tests

im nuts over channel 8 drama serials now. haha they rock!

omg its thurs already. last thurs where i can be slping at home, slacking and facing the com. guess this time next wk i would most prob be pia-ing some homewrk and be deprived of TV. shucks. the holidays are ending. and i cant stand tt fact. i dont wanna face up to reality that sch is going to reopen and tt we are going to have to face all that stress all over again. i had a good break i admit but its WAY to short. sheesh just 4 more days. 4 more days to slack and relax and enjoy! ok prob sunday is not even counted 'cause tt day is reserved for proj and pia-ing all e hw that has yet to be done. so much for my planning at e beginning of the hols. i think i somewhat planned to finish my hw by 3rd wk before i leave singapore for a short hol. this schedule is long outdated and im not planning to update it because according to circumstances now, i think i would probably finish all my hw at 11 pm on sunday night. nt to mention the E&I thingy which i am spposed to collate but have no idea what the whole thing is about.

the more i talk about sch reopening the more im feeling depressed. sigh there goes my hope of going for any more ballet or whatsoever

feeling better finally. sigh last week of hols already. sheesh i dont want sch to reopen! this month of holidays really passed too quickly and is not enough for ME! i need a longer break before we return back to sch for all e drilling and stress for EOYS. gosh come to think of it only 2 months to EOYs. not tt im planning to start studying now- like what some have already done and are completing- but e stress is inevitable. i want to slack and play more! holidays are not enough!! world cup fever is still here man. imagine when they start broadcasting the final few matches on channel 5. i wun be slping for those nights man. wonder if i would be able to survive for sch den. argh. thinking of sch. i dont wanna go back!

sheesh im getting real sick of this! i just cant stand this damn sickness anymore! i bet my brain cells are going to burn off anytime soon. arghhh first it was just fever--> den stomach flu--> den cough sorethroat etc --> now back to fever. when will this stop?!!

im sick of eating porridge for 3 meals a day
im sick of drinking about 10 cups of water a day
im sick of spending 90% of the day slping
im sick of staring into space when im awake
im sick of not being able to eat the tons of junk food my parents bought from malaysia
im sick of not being able to go for cls and help out as im supposed to
im sick of taking out e thermometer each time only to see a temp. reading of above 37 degrees celsius
im sick of being sick

back frm malacca. had a nice time with my family i guess. haha nt really in e mood to blog about it now but i dare say that e last day was e worse. prob because i fell sick. really unlucky i guess. it started out with vomiting. then things got better but when reaching home, my legs ached so badly suddenly and ya gt a fever. but things are better now already.

im proud to say i gave up on hw. guess i will have to PIA next week.

i miss ballet. alot

back frm malacca. had a nice time with my family i guess. haha nt really in e mood to blog about it now but i dare say that e last day was e worse. prob because i fell sick. really unlucky i guess. it started out with vomiting. then things got better but when reaching home, my legs ached so badly suddenly and ya gt a fever. but things are better now already.

im proud to say i gave up on hw. guess i will have to PIA next week.

i miss ballet. alot

going off to malacca tmr! haha papa's going to drive there. i guess thats e only thing i am worried about. because heard from recent news that it is not really safe to drive there now. hope everything goes well and that i would enjoy myself! haha but it's just a short stay. not going sight-seeing but more of shopping. think thats all we are doing. and can get to stay in hotel! woots. i like e hotel feeling and smell! esp a classy one. hee=)

returned from reh not long ago. reaching home so late nowadays because of ballet. but it was fun la. and i'm still aching very badly. but its a nice feeling, knowing that you have worked! lol. this somewhat reminds me of bio- lactic acid blah but i'm not getting into that. gah e only prob now is that my archilles are still hurting! not as badly as on thurs( or was it fri) but still hurting. hope it would get better aftr resting it for 3 days. and back to clses again when i return=)

ok now i'm going to take back my words. HOLIDAYS ARE PASSING TOO QUICKLY! can't believe that i actually said e hols are slow. dno wad i was thinking at tt moment. i havent even completed half of e hol hw and none of e projs! sheeshh and my last wk is practically gone cux of rehs

those going to NZ enjoy n have a safe journey!

missing all-

had reh today and cls aftr tt. so practically stayed in crestar from 2-10?! haha long but quite fun actually. esp during e reh and cls in tt small room where we were all laughing away. jiamin's right. we should pitch a tent at crestar bcause we are there so often. almost everyday in e hols? just dont like e feeling of my toes being squashed up and hurting so badly. my feet suck la. and my archilles are hurting v badly! im going to put a medicated plaster over it tonight. hope it would help. haha

im way lagging in my sch work. its already e second week and yet. it seemed like i havent done anything. ok nt seemed like. its HAVENT done anything.

was so inspired to blog this morning. i was like forming sentences in my mind about how to put what i feel on e blog. but now i just cant rmb wad i wanted to say. haha failing memory. i need memory boosting pills. seriously

going to malacca on sun. wun be able to send those going to NZ off. sorry. have a good time guys!=)

reh today was fun. its nice=)

hols is passing so slowly. im so bored staying at home. so much to do but im just not in e mood to do all e hw. im slacking. i miss sch 4k cs. but i dun want sch to reopen. argh i dno



i feel uncomfortable. i dno y. i know u may be hurt aftr reading this but i cant keep it to myself anymore. i dun like it when u call me j**. i dun mind being friends with u. we each have our own privacy. i know u care but i guess u are going too far. caring too much may not be a sin but it makes me feel uncomfortable.

just noting down a nice quote i saw when buying cards with judy.

-when 2 hearts beat as one, a miracle has begun

went to school this morning to shoot e LA film. a large proj of the yr. it was ok at least we managed to finish ONE scene. haha took 2 hrs to finish one scene. haha really time consuming. had alot of fun with the water! ya den left school and went to mp library for a short while. borrowed 4 bks! haha finally la. able to read sth. havent read any bks for ages already.

lunch at home n SLEEP! haha slpt till about 430 lo n rushed for ballet after that. haha really think i am really going through the lifestyle of a pig this hols. eating- sleeping- eating- sleeping. lucky theres ballet or i will really become a pig. LOL

mummy always say i lack confidence. even when i was simply commenting that at e end of this yr when bro goes into the army, there wun be anyone for me to seek help from. in terms of sch wrk and i would fail. ya den she was saying. i havent even sat for e exam and yet im here saying tt i would fail. ya. come to think about it. its quite true about e lack of confidence part but who would be thick enough to say. hey im going to do really well for e exams tt i havent took? i need more confidence. but any advice on how to gain tt?

miss-