i dno

hmm.. i know i shldnt b thinking abt these stuff now...now that exams are coming n i shld concentrate on doing well in them..but i cant help tinking bout it AGAIN... nt telling me abt it cux u all r afraid that i will leak it out? m i that untrustable?? haix.. i dno.. i really dno... mayb there r other reasons for not telling me bout it.. mayb im jux being oversensitive... mayb theres nthg at all..sigh.. jux hope that u all would have more faith in me as a friend.. as a friend that close to u all..



u r just using me...right?

friendship

jux found this v cute..n meaning ful...i wish for a perfect friendship

nuts

sch wrk is driving me nuts..dun even have time for myself these days.. eoys are really stressing manx.. really regret slacking so much before this.. but all i can do now is to spend my time revising n making up for how much i had slacked before... sighx.. dno if i can go for ballet manx.. e last time i went was like eons ago...


1st time being so stressed bout eoys.. still rmbed last yr when i started revising or say started to get stressed up only like one wk b4 e exams... now.. i really think that time is not enough.. two more wks yet... i doubt i can finish revising and doubt i will do well.. sighx.. wun b surprised if i actually get kicked out of dhp.. gahhh...


- if only i could turn back time-

mug

now all i have to do is to mug mug n mug



mmmuuuuuuuuuuuuuggggggggggg

mug

i seriously need to mug...eoys...grr


wads happening...from a grp of 7 became 6 ...den split to 3 3 1...y is this happening..

stop it

stop doing this to me.. stop talking among urself n leave me left out... i dno wad u r toking about.. but i know is nt anything bad about anyone... but concerns us all.. u may think that theres no need to tell me.. or say im in no zi1 ge2 to know.. ok i accept that.. but arent friends spposed to tell each other imptant things? n i have a huge feeling that wad u both r toking about would concern all of us.. i feel left out.. seriously.. dread meetings nowadays -hurt-

mooncake festival celebration today...



gahh..i better start mugging

i dno

havent been for ballet since god knows when.. exam period now..dun really think i shld go back with them being so stressed out bout their exam.. think shld give ms lee more time to correct them instead of bothering with pple like me who is nt taking e exam.. haix..dun quite feel like going back too.. v busy with sch nowadays.. gahh.. la film.. we havent finished la.. n gt back our tests today.. flunked totally but gahh.. i dun really care actually... n eoys coming n im still like coming online everyday.. theres seriously sthg wrong with my attitude man.. total slack.. shldnt even join dhp in e 1st place.. tho i wun know which combi to choose otherwise but.. my attitude n nt taking o levels..tink i will jux probably fail a levels n become a road sweeper somewhere in marine parade.. heyy.. acty thats nt a bad idea manx... i would b able to widen my social circle huh.. n can help to keep e environment clean.. gd idea..think i shld give this some serious thought


-life has to go on..but it jux suckx-

irritating

sch reopens tmr..my skin is peeling already... sigh dun feel like going back leh seriously.. i dun wanna face a cls which says .. ehh..i finish studying already lehh..but dun really uds.. or aiya i only studied 4 subjects still gt 3 lehh.. i mean walao.. i haven even started studying and yet i have to listen to ppl crapping about how much they studied..thanx ya.. argghhh


im still in e mood of slacking manx..coming online everyday..sigh.. this seriously has to change but i jux dno how.. gahh...i need to CHANGE my mindset.. we have to study or we will have no future..gahh.. typical kiasu-ism



im getting irritated.. but i dno how to tell it to u

dazu

had our 1st dazu today.. e 1st one organised by us..ahahx.. was super high today.. our station was e obstacle challenge.. below e netball court.. quite a ulu place but guess everyone found us in e end because we were quite obviously walking arnd that area... ahahx.. quite cool la watching e grps play.. e feeling is v diff frm last time.. quite fun too.. ya.. den bcux there was quite a lot of free time in between.. we kept playing volley!! realised that its quite a nice game aftr all.. playing volley reminds me of siva manx..heee... overall tink dazu is v successful... hahahx.. enjoyed myself alot.. but e only bad thing is... i m damn BURNT... 1st time k.. was never this BURNT before.. not even during sports day lo.. walao.. esp my back of e neck area... its nt even red.. its maroon manx.. damn.. how m i spposed to go for ballet la..




we rawk man!! love all of u guys loads...MUACKS!!

piano

sighx..piano exam tmr.. shldnt even have taken in e first place man since it is a confirm fail thing..haix..den make me so stressed up n upset summore.. oh man.. cant wait for it to b over.. jux afraid tht aftr e exam i would b even more depressed on knowing how badly i flunked e exam.. music n me jux dun belong together manx..sigh...darn phototaking at 12 lehh... scared i will b late.. wth


didnt go for cls today.. jux didnt feel like it.. planning to go tmr or say have to go tmr cux im spposed to bring a leo for nat.. arghhh.. bet my mood will b spoilt aftr e exam la.. damn.. best is that i dun go forever la..


in a super bad mood... gahhhh

true friends

- true friends are hard to come by, difficult to hold on and impossible to forget-

grades

it saddens me to see u in this state.. seriously.. life is nt all about grades.. so wad if u get like 1st in standard or 1st in cls... so wad if u dun do well.. life still has to go on rite? dun always give urself too much stress over sch wrk... n such high expectations of urself.. everyone has limits.. some yes can excel in their studies but not all... i cant and i know and i tink u shld know ur limits as well.. jux do ur best... as long as u have put in all ur hard wrk.. no matter whats e results.. im sure u would b satisfied.. no use making urself so upset over such trivial matters... wads important is that u have learnt something over the process.. nt jux e results... cheer up ya.. i dun want to see u sad n depressed all e time.. i wish to c u crack a jk to me.. or tell me sthg gd... eoys.. just do ur best.. u all always say 3k gives u all alot of stress but to tell u e truth.. i tink we r e slackest.. we dun really like bury our heads in bks la.. we really slack alot.. on e other hand... tink it is u all that give us e stress... jiayou k.. n cheer up





-i can sum up everything i have learnt in life: it goes on-

sighx

haven been blogging for quite some time.. had 3 tests this wk.. almost killed me with all the stress n pressure... haven been for ballet for the whole wk unless u wanna count yestrday when i went to help out at e concert... sighx.. my life is falling apart.. all because of sch wrk.. losing passion losing the ability to enjoy life



live life to the fullest... thats wad everyone says.. but how to?? we cant even have the opportunity to pursue our dream or say.. dun even have the chance n time given to us... i cant say that my dream is to dance.. because i know i cant.. but dancing is the only time when i can actually relax n enjoy.. n feel happy when i sweat.. sigh.. i dun mind dancing for pleasure.. going for clses when i want to.. well thats wad i want actually... but i dun have the time.. and.. tis is what makes me start to feel that going for clses are actually a waste of time n i can actually make use of time better at hm doing hw or sthg... is this wad dhp really want us to be?is this wad e gov want us to be?


seeing u sad makes me sad too.. have more self confidence..



-dance to live, live to dance-