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life does not end when you meet a setback in life....u have to carry on... and continue with life...with a stronger attitude




thanx ya...for e support...seriously touched by how u reacted upon hearing what i said... i know im nt alone now... not e only one not coping well with stress... e diff between sec 2 and 3 life... ahahx... n e difficulty of chinese!! ahahx...love ya lots... thanx for talking to me when i really needed it... that's what true frenx are for!


i uds how u r feeling right now... tho i dun think there's a use of posting this up for i doubt u ever come to my blog...hmm...in life... there are many setbacks that we will face... not one or two... but much more.... yes... these setbacks are tough to overcome... but once u have braved through it... u will see life in another way... a more optimistic way... a braver and stronger way... i personally is very similar to u... being e youngest n only daughter... i am spoilt... and i admit to that... that's why i cant take difficulties well...they will dwell within me and it takes me a very long time to accept some facts... but no matter what... life still has to go on... ending a life just because u r upset or jux bcause u dun want to face up to reality is foolish... very foolish... i believe there are still many things out there in the world which we have yet to see... and simply because u didnt get things ur way... and ending a life will make one miss a whole lot of fun which will happen when one is alive... not onli dat... people arnd u who care for u will b hurt.... be strong and overcome this setback...it will not be e last obstacle met in life... but so long as u overcome it... u will see life differently...



had sports day today...met xh ker n zy at 630 at kallang mrt...ahahx... was deprived of my slp but nvm... hahx... den went to macs and waited for it to open... dey bought some food and we walked to e stadium... were a bit late but doesnt realli matter....
we are seated in e shade tis yr...so wasnt dat burnt tho a bit...with sleeve and neck marks... ahahx...ya... and for e cheering com...realli cheered my voice out..ahahx.. cool... e competition b/w cchms and dhs was v great tis yr..ahahx.. realli felt e dunman spirit... in most i guess... ahahx...

tink u r cool... lemme tell u... u r not...


18 more days to syf... let e countdown begin

great class

today's class was good...i never felt this good for class before...ok...mayb i did...but this feeling has long gone from me...perhaps it is because of the fact that im getting too stressed up by sch, ballet exam n syf...i still am...but today's class really cheered me up...we went through e notes ms lee took down during our open house n corrected e mistakes...ahahax..den in order to make us get into e mood of dancing...she made up stories like fairytales...fascinating stories that are impossible in reality...to let as sort of play a role...as though we were acting...ahahx..den e stories were all so funny and cute...hahx..den all of us kept laughing...fun!!ahahx..


dreading wudao these days...its either she starts suaning me or say that im wrong...ok..i admit im nt gd in this..n she correct us in order for us to improve...but i dun like it when she keep picking on me...my actions are not good...i noe that..u can throw me to e back for all i care...i wont b hurt...i wont even care...but im trying my best lo...stop putting pressure on me by comparing me to people whom i obviously am weaker than...wad e...im already v stressed...pls...i beg u..



stress...i cant take it any longer... i on e verge of crying these days... im gonna seriously break down one of these days.... i cant stand it....

dead

wahh...im seriously so dead...open house tmr... im seriously gonna make a fool out of myself...i noe it...haix...if only tmr can past v fast...if only there is no such ting as open house...sighx...im nt prepared...ok...i think seriously..none of us r really prepared...we jux finished learning e work and we practised it for barely 5 times...esp marzurka..how pro is that...for poetic...my legs r all over e place...for valtz...no feet...sighx...i really seriously think we lack practice..sighx...hope everything goes well tmr...

haven touched my hol hw yet...sighx..n its already thurs nite...count it as fri..sighx...wudao on sat again..i seriously think i wont b able to finish my hw by e time sch reopens...e whole hols is already gone due to syf prac n ballet...sighx...busy...hate this manx...stupid system...why mux e hols b so short...why dont they give like at least 1 mth...let us relax abit oso cnt...this hols was nt fruitful at all lo...ok..mayb for dance it is la..but for my studies...think i'll drop damn lot behind e cls...sighx...wish me luck...as for projs...welin kerina!..sorry!!..for nt meeting up with u all that day...hmmx...damn busy..sorryy...apologies...boo

loneliness

sometimes i really m glad to have a bro...i mean like at least some1 close to me...about e same age as me to share my problems n jokes...u simply cant do all these things with ur parents..its nt e same...probably because of the age gap i guess...hmm...my bro had to camp in sch cux of some projects that he n his cca cant finish..im starting to feel e loneliness...thats probably why im online for almost e whole day....except for in e afternoon when i had lessons...sighx...i wonder how those who r e only child survives...im simply bored to death manx...ok...mayb u would ask me to do my hw...but sighx...e hols jux started...i gotta enjoy abit b4 cramping myself up with hw rite...i mean...e purpose of e hols is to let u relax...ok...mayb catch up with ur work...something that i seriously need to do...but ...as usual...slacking overcomed e desire to study....ahahx...its nt my fault...seriously....sighx...all i can do now is face e com n stare at it...n go to slp at about 9..how's dat...sighx...

miss my bro....

pigg

ahhax...hols have started...sighx..but only for a week...how pathetic manx...a wk means 5 days...n how much hols will we actually have if we have to go back 4 days out of 5..how nice rite...ahahx...n e piles of hw waiting 4 me at hm...looks like it will b as stressful as e sch days...boo

woke up at bout 10 today...go out 4 a while and returned hm at 1 plus only to slp again until 4... ahahx...so nice..if only i could do this everyday...life will b great manx... *dreams*... ahahx...actually slp is gd 4 us lo...despite e fact dat parents claim dat slping too much will make one lazy...firstly slp makes u energised...2ndly slp makes u grow taller...according to some radio broadcast...n 3rdly...slp makes u thinner...4 e fact that when u slp, u would nt eat anything and hence nt grow fat...given that u dun eat b4 u slp cux our metabolic rate slows down during slp...ahahx...how factual...im seriously crapping manx...

pointe cls was gd...really worked..think acty worked more than normal g8 cls...tho i dun exactly consider myself as enjoying pointe v much...ahahx...but think my foot is super sickled...any1 out there who knows how to solve this prob can tell me...thanx!

frustrations

hmm...one good thing about having a blog is to have a place to vent my angers frustrations or unhappiness...n presently...i wish to vent my frustrations...damn

sec 3...i really think im gonna die dis yr...according to results 4 term1 ...i tink im like 20 and above in cls...out of 25...wow...how nice rite...acty...it is nt e workload that i cant cope with...its e cls!!! e pple!!!they are all super smart n super hardworking!!!sighx...

even worse...ballet...its realli stressing me up...e ballet exam is like in a mth's time and there's open house nxt wk...wow...look forward to it soooo much manx...simply cccaaann'tt wait for it...dancing solos for all in front of all parents...wow...for sthg like marzurka...i'll probably fall flat on my face e minute e dance starts...parents will start laughing...ms lee will start making fun...n aftr e laughing..its either that my face will turn maroon or that i will start crying...how nice...ballet exam...with only me..e examiner n pianist in e room...i'll probably freak out e moment e examiner looks at me n forget all e work...stand dere n do nthg when e music is played n break e record of being e "best dancer"...one that dances without moving...hmm...seriously...i realli under lots of pressure...she didnt really bother bout me today n i really felt v bad...when doing marzurka with belle phoeb n kelly...i realli felt...BAD...real BAD...felt as tho i was so lousy....hmmx...but ren3-ed...finally...broke down...when every1 left...luckily...

hilary....phoeb..thanx!!!...love ya!!!

wishes

damn...one page of post deleted...
no more mood to post...
gahhx..
time wasted...
energy used up
memory wasted...
crapx

some times when i come to think about it...i really wonder if scolding us will do us any good...mayb it will make us work harder...or may b even make us improve...but....seriously...i tink scolding will only make us more scared of her...or hate her more...so does scolding really actually help?

tmr will b late 4 wudao again...bcux of visit to the parliament...sighx..some stupid compulsory field trip by e sch...how interesting...jux hope i wun bore to death...till bout 4+...den i have to leave at 530 again to go 4 ballet...if this continues...i wun b surprised if she explodes in front of me some day...shouting n swearing at me all e bad words on earth at me...stabbing me with a knife...n kicking me out of syf...wow....how nice...ya...guess i shld b prepared for all that...n wad will i do if all e above realli happens?...i tink i jux hav to accept it all...nt like i can do anyting about it rite...but e worst is being kicked out...sighs...

had fun ysterday! love all of ya guys!!